Family
I am so sorry to say that I have allowed the true meaning of family get away from me.
My cousin Joi got married today. She was a lovely bride. There was a genuine feeling of familial love, support, and pride. I saw members of my family I have not seen in years, my Aunt Sammie and Uncle Tee, who are more like my brothers and sisters, my Aunt Hattie, and my cousins Kashia and Ahmad.
I spent the most time with Tee. I really enjoyed our conversations and for the first time I think I appreciated the esteem with in which I am held. I finally understood what I have denied myself and most damningly denied Kevin and Christina. I have no valid or credible excuses or explanations for such a tragic lapse.
My family is full of warm, loving, intelligent, witty, and beautiful people. I made connections to the person I am reflected in the faces and personalities and experiences of people I love and who love me. I am both grateful and regretful. With all certainty I will not continue to alienate my family or myself from my family.
